Since we went to bed early, Gizmo woke up early. This is Gizmo’s last full day before his euthanasia appointment and we were determined to spend the entire time cuddling him. I told myself that today was going to be a happy day and I could spend my time crying over him later, and for the most part I managed to stick to it. I only had a couple of moments of tears. It’s hard to cry when your cheery giant teddy bear is insisting on non-stop love and attention. Though Colin keeps reminding me that it’s okay to feel sad and crying is a good thing.
We started by staying in bed cuddling for a while. Colin even hand-fed our little prince while he was up in the bed laying on my legs. We gave him some codeine on top of his regular meds to make him as comfortable as possible today. Eventually, we moved to the living room and cuddled him while watching tv. I brushed him for nearly an hour while we were there. In the afternoon he got too warm and wanted to back to the bedroom, where we have an AC unit, so we went back to bed and took a nap together. We spent some of the evening back in the living room cuddling and petting him while watching tv until bedtime, where he came back on the bed and slept between us. We checked off his bucket list item to have an entire day of cuddles, and he loved it. That dog can never get enough! I’m pretty sure we could have been doing this all week and he still wouldn’t have thought it was enough. He also got spoiled with lots of treats throughout the day.
I’m not ready to say goodbye. I don’t think I ever could be. I’m going to miss him so much. He’s been the goodest boy ever. This day went by too quickly. Though even with the additional pain meds and the joy of nonstop love and attention, we know he’s still uncomfortable and it’s the right decision.
